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Well since the lovely Lisa asked so nicely I’m doing a picture post of Gracie. I know she’s in her diaper in a few but it’s hot out. (continue reading…)

I’m definitely over summer. It is now September which means fall is around the corner. The weather disagrees as it is like 95 out or something like that. The humidity is worse and I feel all sweaty and sticky and just ick. Blah. Go away summer. This weekend is going to be in the 60′s. YAY.

I’m back at my mom’s and it’s OK. Very cramped and 5 days a week I’m in my mom’s room with the other 2 being on the living room floor on an air mattress. Meh, it works. We had court yesterday and they’re keeping Gracie in mom’s custody until we go back on the 27th of October in which case, if the reports from my doctors continue to be positive, it appears I will regain full custody. YAY.

Speaking of the munchkin, she turns 1 on the 28th. I can’t believe she’s growing up! Time definitely does fly I agree.

Randy got a sentence cap of 1-3 which means he’ll be upstate for 2 years most likely. My status with him is… well let’s just say he calls every day and I visit him twice a week. Gracie comes with me once and I go alone the other time since it’s easier to talk without her getting fussy or impatient to sit for 45 minutes.

Well, I got served with a court date because my landlord is wasting no time in taking me to court to kick me out. Seriously he called on the 11th, served me a 3 day notice to pay up or get out on the 14th, and then the 18th filed to have a court date. He wasn’t willing to work with me or anything so it is what it is. I had like $275/$425 and he said no he wanted it all. No extensions or anything. So on the 25th I have court and to be honest I don’t want to deal with this so I’m getting moved back to my parents house before then so when we go in I can say I’ve forfeited the property and the judgment for August’s rent and whatever else can be filed against me.

Hopefully Kyle is going to be able to help me move on Monday morning or something. He’s got a truck and trailer. It’s going to be SO crowded at my parent’s trailer but we’re doing what we need to in order to get by. I got the court notice on my door last night after the Toby Keith concert. Mom decided last minute (like 3:30pm yesterday) that $30 each for a ticket to see him was well worth it so she paid for the tickets, parking, and food beforehand. I definitely agree that it was worth it. The show was AMAZING. Toby is an AMAZING performer. He’s so full of life and just happy. Trace Adkins and James Otto opened. James Otto was good. Trace sounded good BUT he was quite boring to be honest. He just didn’t really DO anything. I can definitely say next time Toby comes to town I will DEFINITELY be there.

My Zoloft was increased this morning. I have court next week for the custody hearing with Randy and mom. Him and I have been talking a bit and we’re both going to push for me to re-gain custody.

As for me right now I feel like complete ass. I’ve been packing all day. I got my kitchen done and all my electronics and books besides my computer of course. I also got the closet cleaned out and now just need to pretty much sort through clothes and then pack up glass once my mom brings over some newspaper. I’ve done a lot today. I’m not sure how much longer it’s going to take or how much work is going to get done today because I just feel awful right now. My head hurts, I’m nauseated, and overall I’m just BLAH. Now off I go to watch Jungle 2 Jungle while typing up some articles.

This is a review of a sex toy.

I was given the opportunity to review The wild trio vibrator kit recently. I was excited to receive it because I figured a vibrator with three different attachments was sure to be enticing and full of pleasure.

I was sadly disappointed when I received the item. It was delivered in a fast manner and in discrete packaging which is always desirable when ordering sex toys online. However, it definitely lacked the power that I’d expect to get from a vibrator. It was hard to get very stimulated with the low speeds that were offered regardless of which type of attachment was used. I found that the best of the three was the butterfly since it covered a larger area while the dolphin would be the worst since the piece that touches the clitoris is rather flimsy.

One positive of this is that the attachments are small and come apart from the base so it can be stored away in small places without anyone really knowing the true purpose or even recognizing that it is one of your many vibrators. Cleaning can be a bit difficult because of the shape of the attachments as well.

Overall, I’d say that if you’re used to powerful toys you may want to skip by this one. It is also quite noisy for its small size. It may also be related to the fact that it only requires one battery to operate.

Life is incredibly stressful right now. I’ll just do bullet points here.

• Randy got arrested for DWI and countless other charges on Sunday night. We went to an emergency court hearing yesterday at 1 and because I’m supposedly still not fit my mom was granted custody instead of her being placed in foster care
• I’m still unemployed and stressing hardcore about money
• I feel like a horrible mother because I don’t have my child with me

I’m stressed. I still take my Zoloft, I still see my psychiatrist, and tomorrow I start counseling. I think I am going to benefit greatly from it. I’ve been talking to Kyle quite a bit. We dated for like a week but then Randy came around and screwed things up (stalking me, harrassing me) so we pretty much wiped the slate clean and we’re just friends right now. We talk all the time and I really like him. He likes me too but we’re taking things day by day. Basically we want to make sure that Randy is completely out of the picture when it comes to me and only communicating with me for the purpose of Gracie. Friday I’m going to the Tim McGraw and Lady Antebellum concert and then the weekend after we’re camping out at my aunt and uncle’s house an hour and a half away. Kyle might be coming too to keep me company. I’m looking forward to kicking back and relaxing. I need it.