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Today was my 40 week (to get technical, and 1 day) doctor appointment where my lovely doctor got to stick his hand up me to determine that there is absolutely NO progress whatsoever with little miss Gracie. She’s still high up and my cervix is closed right up. That sucked to hear. I was hoping for some progress indicating she might say hi sooner rather than later. The amniotic fluid is still good but her heart beat is something he was a bit concerned about. She’s hovering around 115-118bpm maximum after 4 different position changes.

I go back on Thursday morning bright and early at 9:15 to see if I have made any progress at all and to get another check on fluid levels. He mentioned a possible induction which is why he has me coming in so early but did not say for sure it’s happening. He’s not really pushing in any direction but monitoring my stats. My weight gain was 1lb and my BP is excellent as usual. I imagine Thursday my cell will be going haywire with texts again. Randy kept poking me though and the doc advised him to never provoke a pregnant woman. He told him I’d just get the tire iron from the trunk to which Dr. J replied that it’d be a bad idea because it’d go right through the skull. While checking my cervix he also told me he knew it was invasive but he wasn’t trying to reach my tonsils. Someone has a sense of humor. :-p

On a completely unrelated note I’m annoyed with something I read on someone’s journal online. It’s no one who I talk to directly or who will read this so no, it’s not you. She’s a mother to 2 boys and attends college part time while her husband works. They struggle like many of us do. Well a week or 2 ago she posted about not having food because her food stamp recertification didn’t go through and she had to re-file paperwork blah blah blah whatever it happens. She posted and someone mentioned she should post her paypal info. Again, no problems yet. Shit happens.

Today she posted that she almost overdrew her account but managed to cover the charge before the OD fee hit. Then later in the entry says her cable almost got shut off and she had to write them a check for $160 but there’s only $19 in there but she omg HAD TO do it because she can’t live without the TV on it’s just not normal and you can only talk to someone for so long before it’s eerie. Then posted her paypal link again.

W-T-F?! I’m usually not one to judge people especially when it comes to finances but WTF again? You have children you complain about having problems feeding and then beg people for money to pay your cable bill (and an overdraft fee you will encounter)? I can’t believe some people and where their priorities lie. I also was tempted to reply to her that since moving here (almost 2 months now) our TV was on for 2 hours. She obviously has a computer and high speed internet. Ever heard of hulu or a DVD player or *gasp* music from a radio or even mp3s? I can’t fathom how you can prioritize a $160 cable bill over penny pinching to buy milk/gas/other food which are essential for care of your children.

With that being said, I think I may go lie down. My sleep schedule today was from 8:00am-10:30am and then from 8:00-8:45pm. I’ve tried pillows between the legs, propping up, etc. Nothing works. My body is very anti me getting any type of significant sleep and I cringe in pain every time I get out of bed. Randy and I have been noticing he works close to 50 hours a week and I’m home all the time and he gets at least double the amount of sleep I do. Joy.