So over this. 40 weeks
Sep 20
I look like crap and feel like it too. Today marks 40 weeks and little Miss. Gracie is showing no signs of appearing. She’s still quite high up it feels and there have been no changes in the TMI department. I’ve been having mild cramping but that is nothing new. Tomorrow I have a doc appointment at 1:45 where he’ll do my first cervical check at 40w1d. He hasn’t mentioned anything about inductions which I’m glad b/c I don’t want a doc pressuring me into anything. I’m just hoping that there has been SOME progress.
I’m sick of not being able to lay down without pain. I’m sick of my legs going numb in bed. I’m sick of not being able to sleep for an hour even without being uncomfortable. I’m sick of refusing my husband’s sexual advances because it’s not enjoyable for me but most of all?
I’M SICK OF THE FUCKING TEXT MESSAGES OF PEOPLE ASKING IF I’M IN LABOR YET. I swear I get like 5 a day. It’s SO FUCKING ANNOYING. You will KNOW when I am in labor because I will tell you. Until then, back.the.fuck.off. I’d probably be more patient if I wasn’t getting hassled every single day about it. I’m ready to throw my phone out the window or leave it off but then knowing my luck someone would show up at my door because my phone went to voicemail. Oh the horror. My MIL accused me of being moody earlier. I told her no I’m just fucking cranky outright. There’s no mood swing about it.
Surprisingly, I haven’t taken my rage out on anybody and now I’m going to go work on ChaCha for a bit and then maybe consider attempting a nap. We’ll see.
Who is cuter?
Sep 19Both my boys appear to be quite tired tonight. I can’t determine which one I find cuter. Pardon the cell phone pics, I’m too lazy to get the camera out of my hospital bag.
Newfound love for cleaning
Sep 18I’ve been very into cleaning lately and I’m not sure whether it’s a nesting thing or it’s because this apartment is mine. At my mother’s house I dreaded it but I went shopping today and bought boring stuff like carpet deodorizer, a swiffer, air fresheners, sponges, and a few other household items and I think I get entirely too excited about purchasing them. I got the swiffer wet cloths that have febreeze in them but soon discovered that the dry ones do work better than I predicted for catching hair so I’ll have to pick some of them up too. I also got a downy ball so I can stop having to watch for the rinse cycle in my washer to add the softener. It may also be because we have pretty defined roles between Randy and I.
The kitchen is my territory. He does not touch my cleaning products or attempt to clean the dishes or do the laundry. I’m set in my ways and if things get out of sorts it annoys me. He also doesn’t vacuum in the house. His area of expertise is cleaning up after Colby outside (pooper scooper anyone?), tools, the car (which he vacuumed this morning in preparation for installing the carseat. I had hair galore from Colby in there) , and of course doing that whole work outside the home thing. I’m a creature of habit and minor changes throw off my whole day. I also do most of the cooking although he does know how. I just like the traditional roles I guess. I also feel that I should be doing the majority of the work at home since I’m choosing to be a stay at home mother while he takes on 10-12 hour shifts 6 days a week.
How do you and your significant other delegate responsibilities in and out of the home? How do you feel about it?
39 weeks and 1 day. Dum dum dum
Sep 14Well today was *hopefully* my last doctor appointment. Knowing my luck, Gracie is going to make us wait until after the due date though. The appointment went the same as always. I’ve lost 2 lbs and my BP is excellent. If I don’t go into labor before Monday’s appointment then on Monday he’s going to see if I’m dilated at all but he doesn’t want to rush things if my body isn’t ready which I am SO grateful for. I don’t want an induction. I’m also on orders to keep off my feet as much as possible due to the constant pain and swelling in my left foot which is unexplainable. I think I might end up in labor before then or so I’m hoping that these random feelings of twinges in my vagina (TMI yes), back pain, cramps, and the omg I have to pee every 20-30 minutes instead of every hour aren’t just psychological. I’ve definitely noticed it’s a bit tighter to drive with my belly being so rounded out.
Randy’s working overtime tonight which isn’t surprising to me in the least. He likes money. I like the attitude he’s got about working to support myself and Gracie. I see FAR too many relationships built with lazy men mooching off of their women just because they can like Randy’s cousin. She worked until 3 days before her due date. There is NOTHING wrong with women working or both working but her boyfriend should have been working to help instead of lounging around while she supported both of them. It’s ridiculous. Randy and I are on the same page when it comes to me working. He wants me to stay at home with Gracie and he works to support us financially. I help out a bit with ChaCha and I do the majority of the housework. It’s equal to us as a trade off. I just hate seeing girls who do ALL of it such as Randy’s sister, cousin, and a few other people that we know personally. Ah well though. All I can do is live my life and appreciate that I have a good man who is on the same page when it comes to goals and ideals.
With that being said, I’m going to go try to earn the last few dollars on ChaCha before midnight’s monthly payoff cutoff and then organize some more baby clothes/do the dishes. I might decide to put some clothes on as well considering I’m sitting wrapped in a towel right now. There are some perks to being completely alone in the house. ^_^
Baby shower turnout
Sep 14Well today was the baby shower and it went very well. Randy’s mom did the organizing along with his sister Heather. The food was good, family on both sides were there, and it was overall a great time. Both of our families have been so supportive and helpful with everything related to Gracie and I appreciate it more than any of them know I think. I got a ton of clothes, bath items, a bath tub, a bassinet, a boppy pillow, a crib (have to pick up from my aunt), a scrapbook, a dresser from my mom, and a personalized changing table from Randy’s dad that has Gracie’s name carved into it and the wood re-finished. It was my big surprise gift that I wasn’t allowed to know about or see until I got home because Randy and his dad dropped it off for me. I was so surprised and I LOVE it. I apologize for the poor quality pictures but I took them with my phone and am too lazy to get my camera and then upload/resize blah blah. So here is the bassinet and changing table.
I may be forgetting a few gifts since I’m so tired and overwhelmed by all the stuff I have to organize/put away but everything will get put to use. We also got an antennae because Randy and I are too cheap to pay for satellite/cable and I like my locals. (Football anyone?) Right now I’m doing some ChaCha while curled up with Colby trying to earn the last few dollars before the payoff cutoff at midnight tomorrow. We use that for rent and make up the difference with Randy’s income. This month I slacked due to the wedding and overall feeling like poo but I’ve made about 70% which is a lot better than 0 we both agree.
