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Like the title says, we’re no better off now than we were the day we found out we had to move. I’ve scoured the papers and Pennysavers. I’ve called everything that is in our budget and no one will accept pets as large as Colby so we’re still at square 1 and I really want to break down and cry because we don’t deserve this. We’ve done nothing wrong and have been excellent tenants with no complaints, on time and usually EARLY rent payments, and we don’t bug our land lord incessantly for trivial matters. This really fucking sucks and I’m having my own personal pity party today because I’m stuck right now. I don’t know what to do anymore. I really don’t and I’m sick of my husband’s attitude of “it will work out”. The only reason things fucking work out is because I bust my ass to make them work. They don’t just fall into place, Mr. sunshine and rainbows. We looked into mobile homes for sale and they want a huge down payment + the monthly costs are out of our budget as well. How shocking.

I really don’t have a lot to say lately. It’s why I haven’t blogged in like 5 or 6 days now. Randy has been on vacation which began on December 23rd and went back tonight. It’s weird not having him here now since I’ve gotten so used to him being around constantly. He said it is bitter sweet because he’s been bored but I can tell that he’s going to miss actually getting to spend time with her. His life is about to return to work and sleep. He’s also going to be trying to work as much over time as possible but who knows how that will go since apparently the opposite department is on layoff for cleaning/machine maintence/whatever so some will be in his department, cutting down hours.

Oh yeah. I’ve tlaked about it on message boards and twitter but we have to be out of our apartment. We got a 30 day notice on December 30th. I guess the owner of the house wants to renovate or something. Our “landlord” is just the property manager. They have other properties but they’re out of the county and too far from both his work and our families. We don’t have the option of leaving the county. She assured us we have done nothing wrong and she was really apologetic but now we are in a bit of a rut trying to come up with security + first month rent for a new place PLUS finding somewhere that allows Colby who is 55lbs of lazy before February 1st. Moving isn’t an issue b/c we both have a nice network of family/friends with trucks and manpower but still. *sigh* We’re tying to band together and not stress which causes fights. If it comes down to it, we could always go to 1 of our parents’ houses but they barely have room for themselves, let alone 3 extra people. We’ll just take it day by day though. It’s all we can do, right?