It’s been awhile
It’s been awhile
Jun 24So it’s been 3 weeks since I last updated. Since then I have done a number of things many people are aware of. I try to keep too much off of my personal blog since it can be read by ANYONE but in short
- I tried to commit suicide and failed but was on life support for 4 days
- Am in a custody battle for my daughter and currently have visitation
- Will have 2 room mates as of August 1st to ease the huge financial strain
- Am actively seeking employment
- Have lost an un-determined amount of weight
I’m trying the best I can but I do have some rough times or days in general which make me miss my old life. Coming out of this was like a fresh start that I really didn’t want. I didn’t picture my life this way… I’m just glad I have amazing support from friends and family (2 specific friends come to mind). There are times where I sit and ponder and just wonder WHY but never get an answer to it. I’m not really comfortable discussing the suicide attempt in public besides just stating that I hit a breaking point. I do have an order of protection against him now so he cannot call, text, etc. with me or have a third party do so either. *sigh* I hate that things have come to this. It’s messy, it hurts. Sometimes I sit down and I miss him… and that is when I am reminded of he is why I’m going through all this shit right now and my ass gets kicked back into gear.
Now I’m continuing my freelance opportunities. I need to come up with roughly $240 by the first through freelancing or SOMETHING if anyone has an opportunity that can help me out feel free to shoot it my way. I have ample time since I only get 9 hours of visitation a week until we go back to court to actually work it out. Anything set now is just temporary while we get lawyers and stuff.
You’re doing so well, Manda. Keep at it and don’t let things get you down again. You sound like you’re focused and that’s what you need to be right now. Well done for coming through it a stronger person. <3
For freelance writing try Demand Studios, Textbroker.com, Seed.com, Break Studios, Suite 101, freelancewriting.com, Associated Content. Those are just a few I can think of at the moment. I write for Demand Studios, Break Studios, Suite 101 and use to write for Textbroker.
Good luck sweetie!
Keep at it, Manda. You’re very smart and determined. It’s normal to feel like you love and miss Randy. Love isn’t like a switch or a faucet that you can turn on and off – for better or worse. Just keep focussing on what is best for you and Gracie. I am glad you have a couple of good, close friends you can rely on there. I don’t know what happened that night (nor do I need to know, it’s not my business), but I am so glad you lived and are here with us today, and I am so saddened that you felt low enough to attempt suicide. If Randy is involved, I think it’s good you’re taking steps to protect yourself with the order of protection.
Hi Manda,
Found you through another website.
I just want you to know I you can do this. I was used an abused by my sons Dad. He left me and my life in ruins with a 3 month old. My son is 8 years old now. I have a new life. A new child (2 year old daughter)a great significant other (never ever gonna get married) Good things will come to you! |
This is not a “I know how you feel” Its just a YOU GO GIRL.
only up from rock bottom.
I am so glad that you are okay and I really hope that things continue to get better for you.
I am so glad you are okay, it will take time but it will get better. -hugs-
Wow… I’m really sorry about all that happened. I’ve seen your tweets lately too, I do hope things continue to get better for you. I’m glad you managed to get the order of protection and hopefully you’ll get more visitation soon too.
*hugs* I’m glad you are okay I was so worried